IN the weeks, months and years before Adam Jordan suddenly died there were signs that things weren't right, plenty of them.
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The Gulgong father of two, died by suicide on October 20, 2017. He was just 31 years old.
That year, he was among 3128 people who took their own life, it's the equivalent of 8.6 deaths every single day, data from the Australian Bureau of Statistics shows.
The night Adam died his mother Debbie and sister Kylie suspected something was very wrong.
"His whole attitude was just different, he was putting things up on Facebook and he wasn't answering any calls," Debbie said.
His whole attitude was just different.
Early on October 20, 2017, Debbie went into town to report her son's strange disappearance to police and officers subsequently conducted a welfare check.
"I got home and a police car was out the front and I knew there and then that he was gone," she said.
Talking to the Mudgee Guardian, Debbie describes a very strange feeling the night Adam stopped answering her calls.
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"I was talking to the police later and they said that's about the time that he died."
Adam had suffered from anxiety, depression and PTSD since he was 18 years old following the death of his father who he was very close to.
It was around 11 or 11.30pm on October 19 when I had this sudden whoosh feeling come across me, I hadn't felt anything like that before.
When he was 21 years old Adam attempted suicide, but survived.
"He hid it so well, which I know is the norm ... he always had the smile and he was the comedian and he was the joker," Debbie said.
"As soon as everyone left he'd go back into his dark place again."
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Most of the time Adam wouldn't talk about his mental health struggles and wanted to get better on his own, although sometimes it did manifest as anger and frustration.
"He used to say 'I'm tough, I can sort this, I can do this'," Debbie said.
Once, however, he did confess just how much he was struggling.
"He said to me 'Mum, I need help'," she said.
He said to me 'Mum, I need help'.
"What help there is isn't enough and there's such long waiting lists ... four months is too long if their head is not in the right place, which Adam's obviously wasn't.
"We need more help and we need people to go and get that help."
Adam would have turned 34 years old on Tuesday, August 11 and it's been a tough week for his family.
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"I'm living for my daughter, daughter-in-law and my five grandkids."
Adam's two young children were just four years old and 18 months on the night he died by suicide.
Debbie believes there are not enough support services for those left grieving after a suicide.
"I tried to start a support group ... I couldn't get anyone interested," she said.
If you or someone you know needs help in a crisis call Lifeline on 13 11 14, MensLine Australia on 1300 78 99 78, or Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800.